In my most recent article and the one before that I mentioned an experience I had a couple of weeks ago when—during a meditation—events and relationships from my past began to flash through my mind like a PowerPoint slide show, and each “slide” was immersed in love. There were none of the usual twinges of regret or shame or resentment that I sometimes feel when reflecting back over my lifetime. It felt like a very healing experience for me.
So for the past two weeks, almost everyday I’ve been trying to relive that healing experience by 1) entering a meditative state while moving my awareness to my heart, 2) visualizing a stream of pure life-energy from the source passing through my spirit bodies (or energy package) into my semiconscious mind, and then 3) revisiting events and relationships from my lifetime while trying to heal them with that same love I felt during the spontaneous experience. The events from my past involved family members, kids I grew up with, men and women I worked with over the years, old friendships that came and went… anyone who came to mind during each meditation. Any negative feelings that typically come up with those memories I tried to replace with that loving energy from the source.
The theory, or the plan, was to heal those past relationships with these meditations.
While the meditation experiences themselves seemed very good, very successful in the moment, the results so far have been surprising. It’s not the deep healing experience I expected, at least not yet. In the past few days I’ve been more temperamental than usual. My nightly dreams are markedly different. They’re more erratic and less calm-and-pleasant than they’ve typically been in recent years. There’s been less friendly interaction with the “people” (spirits) I meet in my dreams, and more confrontation. The interesting excursions with the spirit people that I’ve come to expect in my dreams are now sometimes replaced with scenes of chasing and fleeing, some actual fighting (in which no one gets hurt but everyone vents their intense emotions).
Whether my moodiness and erratic dreams are the result of my meditations or caused by other factors (such as the current pandemic that’s stirring up a lot of fear and angst in the world)… I’m not sure.
Maybe the moodiness and troubled dreams are all part of the healing experience, or maybe I’m venturing into areas where I don’t belong. Again, I’m not sure at this point.
So, my current plan is to suspend those revisiting-my-past meditations for a couple of weeks and monitor my dreams (maybe get back to dream-journaling, which I haven’t done for several years). If the dreams get back to normal and copacetic in the coming days, then I’ll try it again—meditating back over my life experiences—to see if the moodiness and troubled dreams return.
Basically, I’d like to figure out what’s going on here.
Here’s what I suspect is going on, but I want to verify it (or not) by experimenting in the coming weeks: I suspect that when I make these meditative connections to people from my past, I forge a kind of weak and temporary energy bridge with each of them. Once that energy bridge is established, then my guys (spirits involved in my life) get together with their guys, and relationships among all those “guys” can get a little unwieldy (since they’re all strangers who’ll need some time to get used to each other). And that unwieldiness is reflected in my dreams.
I also suspect that my spirit guides facilitated that “spontaneous” experience I had a couple of weeks ago. They knew how to coordinate those visits through my lifetime experiences in a way that would be safe and healing for me. When I tried to recreate those visits without their guidance and protection, things went awry, and the experience was no longer safe and healing. I was like venturing into the wild without a guide and proper equipment.
That’s the kind thing I hope to figure out in the coming weeks.
Meanwhile, I’m going to make some changes to the two previous articles. I’ll start by simply crossing out the information about my efforts to recreate that healing experience I had. I won’t remove the information from those two articles yet, but just do strikethroughs, along with a brief note about why I crossed the information out, along with a link to this article. Eventually I might “heal” the two articles by replacing the crossed-out sections with a brief warning about dwelling on the past. That’ll all depend on what I figure out in the coming weeks during these meditative experiments.
(This article you’re reading now isn’t part of the Worlds Within Worlds series, since the information in it will be added to the previous article and to the next article in the series, which will be about spirit groups who work with ITC experimenters, as explained below.)
But most important (for me, at any rate)—regarding the things I’ve been learning from these meditations—are their implications for ITC research—implications having to do with spirit groups. Each specially suited ITC experimenter has an ITC bridge or contact field that connects them with a spirit group. In the 1990s, Maggy Fischbach (Luxembourg) was connected to Timestream spirit group, who delivered information to her by phone, radio, TV, computer, and other means. Adolf Homes and Friedrich Malkhoff (Germany) were connected to Centrale and Cloverleaf spirit groups, respectively, and they received spirit communications from those groups. There were other spirit groups also committed to ITC at that time, in different countries, including one that was working with me here in the States… and of course with Hans-Otto Koenig in Germany, Marcello Bacci in Italy, and the Scole Group in England.
When two or three of those “specially suited” or ITC-sensitive experimenters worked together on a project (for example, as members of INIT), then their spirit groups also came together to collaborate.
In order for ITC to work—for the bridges or contact fields to remain clear and stable—there had to be resonant thoughts and attitudes between the experimenters on this side, and between their spirit groups on that side of the veil.
(And my recent meditation experiments might shed some light on the delicate nature of those energy bridges that are so key to ITC. We’ll see.)
Again, that’ll be the subject of my next article: ITC experimenters and their spirit groups.